#27 Insecurities And Manipulation
Because she was so insecure that it made her super controlling about my sexuality. First, I told her I had a dream of having intercourse with someone and it upset her a ton. Then, she wanted me to not look at adult movies. Took me to a relationship counselor, and brought it up. And the counselor suggested I did the same, which I was always willing to do. But of course, that wasn’t the issue, she wanted total compliance and didn’t want to go back to her.
Then she started getting upset whenever there was an attractive girl in a movie we watched, or a nude scene, or an attractive girl in the video games I played. Then she got upset when there was a nude image on a screen when I went to a Tool concert. Then she stopped wanting to have sex.
And no, I didn’t go around making constant comments about other women, and yes I told her how much she turned me on, and what parts of her body I loved most. And no my porn habit wasn’t causing me to neglect my life or our sex life.
It was a living hell and honestly, it killed my self-esteem and made sex a living hell and eventually I cheated. Honestly should have just broken up with her, but she was a narcissist with BPD, who psychologically abused me until I was a shell of my former self and I lost my self-respect and sanity from all the gaslighting, and disregard for my boundaries.
Never again will I put up with such controlling, abusive behavior. —MettaMorphosis